Does that make sense to you? It makes perfect sense to me and actually is kind of a metaphor for a bunch of things currently going on in my life. What I am talking about here is getting back into writing mode. It is not easy and so far much of what I have tried to write seems like total crap to me. I feel very disconnected to what I used to be able to do. Not to mention I have to get used to a new format and a new way of logging into things just to comment on blogs. It took me about 20 minutes to enter a comment on a blogspot blog and I still have not figured out how to do it with WP. I had to log in under Google and revisit Blogger sort of. It was a little like returning to the scene of the crime or like if I had am ex boyfriend who worked at Starbucks and I really needed a latte fix and went in hoping he wasn’t there and her totally was…probably spitting in my cup or something.
What was I saying?
Oh, yeah. crawling. That is what I feel like I am doing. All I want to do is get back into the game and I am slogging through mud as I crawl. I need to figure out how to do this now that technology has outpaced me. It doesn’t take kindly to crawlers, especially since all the people I was crawling with years ago are running crazy marathons. I am going to try to get to the marathon eventually but for now, crawling is my thing.